Okay….. So, i’m sitting in the car; thinking about my ex behalf. I’m sure you can relate if you have been involved in a “serious” relationship that suddenly went sour. They say past experience will prepare an individual for the future, but how many more experiences will I have to go through? Feedback is welcome. Here is even one of my diary entries; enjoy:
11/22/2007
Sweet Bitter
Can you cheat on an individual, if you truly say you’re in love with them? A new beginning; recently out of a relationship. It’s hard to move on, but I know it’s possible. This was my first long distance relationship; so there were trust, physical, and mental issues involved. When given doubt you ask questions (to the point to where I was “naggin”). But, you know what hurts the most. When you actually find out the imformation denied was the truth all along (plus more).
Since the relationship is a part of the past. Should I still ask questions? Should I care? Should I cry, again? It hurts, but im beginning to cheer up. I want to blame myself for various reasons (no physical activity, long distance, distance feelings). But, I was always told ” Changing someone is impossible; when they tell who they are -believe them-”. It has taken me some time, but that truly is true.
It has only been a day since the break-up(i’m so strong). I cried yesterday; uncontrollably. The tears I have been holding back for so long. A build up of anger mixed with mental emotions that had to be released. I feel so much better.
Im not going to say, I will never love again. Who am I to say what my future holds in relationships. That part of life is unpredictable. I still have respect, feelings, and love for *****. We will remain friends for as long as possible, because I can never be bitter.
Never Bitter,
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